Positivity, big dreams and why I started this blog
Instead of reviewing a product today, I thought I’d write a more personal post about why I started this blog. About two years ago, I ended an extremely abusive relationship–not just the kind where I didn’t get along, but the kind where I lived in terror wondering what he was going to do next and if his next fit of rage would be the one where he killed me. My ex matched the profile of a narcissistic sociopath perfectly, and therapists have agreed that was what he was. That level of abuse is hard to move on from because it tears your life and your self-esteem apart. Breaking things off and getting a protective order was not enough to avoid his insanity and he’s continued to torment me through third parties.
I am tired of wondering what that lunatic is going to do next, so I’m just going to go ahead and live my life. In fact, I’m going to really live my life!
I’d been reading a lot of self-improvement books and working on improving myself in other ways even before I met the abuser, and a few months ago, I decided it was time to get back on track. I’m a smart woman. I’m pretty, I’m funny, I’m talented. It’s about time I did something about it. These days, I’m focusing on what I’m doing and what I’m going to do. I’m excited about the future and I’m excited about what is going to happen for me.
With my therapist, we have talked about the power of positivity and attraction and she encouraged me to make a list of the things I want in life. She told me to read through it every morning and night and keep focused on my goals. That’s what I’m doing. And let me tell you…it’s working! Right now, I am unemployed, so what better time to try something new, right? I think good things are coming for me, and I think it starts with my attitude.
This blog is all about empowerment and I want to share my excitement. I truly believe that we all can improve our lives.
I have talked a lot with friends and in support groups about the abuse I survived. This blog is about what happens next.